Friday, May 28, 2004
thanks xun. the truth is i guess what u said was true. but i wanna break free from that obligation. cos that only thing i feel from the obligation is only nothing but unhappiness. align ur goal, ur life with ur objective. wadava it is. when your enthusiasm gets killed totally, u just can't find it back again.
is it good or bad if people see through ur true confessions easily? sumtimes people think they know what u really feel, but in actual fact, u know they dun. actually, my blog is just for you xin ren to read. wadava it is, it is not to "shoot" or criticise anyone, or an indirect source of information, so i should just say what i like. anyway, i feel that i am that type of people. very few people can see what i really feel. that makes my weakest spot. cos when sumone can totally describe what u really feel, he or she is the one that really understand u and u are willing to pour erything our with.
i tink the song on my blog is what i really feel now though. it's by elva, ni shi wo xing zhong yi ju jing han. check it out if u like. bah.
anyway, went to sell tickets. then i suddenly feel like going back to my pri sch. so i went back. saw my p6 tcher. he said i changed, owells. he said i was more confident, but looked more unhappy too, or rather more problems. it's just barely half a year. anyway, sumtimes to recent events, i feel that the best way is just to keep my mouth shut and stop commenting, stop giving comments and stop erything. i shall just be dumb for the rest of this half of the year. maybee i shld go down more often to nssa, at least i feel much better dere. eryone face dissappointments before, eryone consoled himself or herself before. if u hadn't before, i would say u are a lucky boy or girl. and how does dissappointment come about, it comes with hope, that's why i learnt how to not give myself hopes. i would like to say shoo sometimes, but i can't say shoo to people. if i can't say it to people, i would just say it to the air. shoo. stop tormenting me. and stop making me feel so upset.
i hope u understand what i said. but if u dun, u might like to ask me. but if u dun want to, then nvm, cos i'm not bothering to explain here. going to watch chinese drama show later, so shall make my way back to school now. anyway, below is a psycology test, maybee u wld like to try it out.
let's say u are in a very impt gambaling game. everycard given to you might dertermine the results of the game, winning orlossing. athe dealer is giving out the cards now, you as a participant of the game, which card would u really want?
A: Spades
B: Club
C: Heart
D: Diamond
anyway, this is suppose to represent what is the most important to you. my choice is B tho. A: spades, means that work is most important to u. u like power and enjoy fame given when u do well in work [smth liddat] B: club, it's suppose to represent that u enjoy life the most, and view happiness as the most important. C: heart, u view relationships as the most important, especially love. u live for love and will do whatever to have love. D: diamond. diamond represents money. basically, means that u wld do anything to have money, a.k.a money minded.
fell in love at17:20
