Wednesday, October 26, 2005
hehh. i finally sucessfully implemented my four hour plan today!
oh yeah. shall mention. i finally finally saw thomas, very far from my expectation leh, jen. but looks pretty honest guy. lol. and jen was bugging catherine to bug me like hell. ah ok okok.
anw. buying birthday present wth siewkhim for judith. her birthday party this sat. gosh. what time am i going to play until this round. so tired ah. ahahha. and must visit ajuana. kept forgetting.
and i miss jester!! ah cheekuang, i want to see him okay? i dun care. hes so cute. fine. all babies and todallars are cute.
and haven seen eric around for quite a while. hmm. maybe i should call him. and my class gathering is finally like going on. but keob, he is going to study. hibernate for two weeks. sigh. sigh. sigh.
fell in love at01:19
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
eheh. i decided to blog since i got nothing to do. or maybe cus i dun wan to do anything else. haha. lol.
anyway. countdown ant 8hrs+ will be someone's birthday!
happy birthday royce!should know which royce you are hehh.
anyway. i implemented my four hours plan today finally. since i make the plan eons ago. okay partially. practice for 3hrs this morning. going to continue later at night.
oohlala. i am going to fall sick soon. yay! sleep!
why is it always rainning? i hate rainy days. brings back bad memories. aheh.
nothing to blog about. haha my life is not interesting at all. fine. altho loads of ppl tell me it is. so i more dun wan to blog abt it. hehh.
fell in love at15:21
Saturday, October 22, 2005
HAI. stressed up.
suddenly feel the stress these days.
SO MANY THINGS veying for time.
what the. and you just reach the point that you have to choose.
people who knew me would just know that i would choose the not-important-in-others-eyes but important-in-my-eyes things.
i know i am a pro-er and can do many things but i still want to rest.
cus i rather die of any other thing than to die of overworking. haha.
fell in love at17:23
Thursday, October 20, 2005
i figured out that i din blog for quite some time.
maybe it's the happenings around made me feel like that. mixed feelings. a tinge of sadness wth some essence of happiness. but calm most of the times. i juse really don't know. dun ask me to choose. don't ask me to feel. i am scared that my feelings are wrongg. i am scared that my feelings are misleading. but you know what. i found my courage today to say this. i am willing to walk this journey with you. for this short period. the pain wun disappear. but let it be as minimal as possible.
sometimes it's really ironic. dun want to do it. yet we are forced to do it. why? because of the people around us. i suddenly wondered how many days that i live for myself. it is so funny. i realise how many people are fighting for my attention everyday. yet i don't feel treasured. am i too.. cant find a word to describe? but well.
doing my philo essay. about jurisprudence. philosophy of law. and i only got 920 words. aiming for at least 1200. sigh. please. please. don't say things that will affect my feelings and thoughts. i know what you want me to do and i don't want to do it. i know once i got involved. it will be like this pool of mud. i would never be out of this. i am already in a big pool of mud that i soon cant manage. everything you all saying now is just meant to make me feel bad. and making me give in in the end. i think it is a rather known fact that i am very easy to convince. because i cant bear to said no most of the times. but why is everyone taking advantage of it?
fell in love at23:26
