Saturday, December 31, 2005
last day of the year. currently at rgs blogging.
i simply love the campsite. don you think so. just the smell of it. maybe it is a bit dirty. a bit fragile. a bit old. with the frequent blackouts. it just hold so many memories. dont it? (:
i simply love red cross. haha. even tho so many weekends, nights and i donno what burnt. you would just make yourself walk and turn up for all the events.
you know what i realise something. captain's ball just simply have have magical touch on the cadets. they lurrrvee captian's ball. it just brings their soul back. something like a zhao hun tactic. look at them play. you would wonder wads in the ball.
hahah got meeting and training later. shall blog again tonight if i have time.
fell in love at08:29
Friday, December 30, 2005
hahah yay blogging!
anw, shall trace all the wayy back to christmast eve!
baked cookies in the morning. and then pack them into nice nice heart shape bags. and we gave it to loads of people during serivce. so funny. seeing others eat the cookies you baked and wondering if it was niceee. then went for service. lixuan and i were at the same place but we never did meet each other. whoops. anw, jianxiong wanted to go eat nasi lemak at katong so the whole cell group went dere to eat. then eat eat until 11 plus. then took mrt. alight at woodlands. and we stupidly sat there wait for bus. until we realise that there was no bus left. cus it was so late. in the end reach home at 1am.
christmas day! went to cat's house and finally get to see her adorable daughter. okay la. but i din play wth her much. and apparently most people got presents for yingying only so cat was quite disappointed. but in the end, jen and i bought her something! see, we know her best huuh. turned out we were de only ones dat bought stuff for her. bought her a hundred over jeans dat she wanted for sooo long. and a cat shirt.. cus she is catherine mah. hahaha lol. and she was super super happy! hmm. i will be too if i am in her shoes. hehx. den went causeway point cus my dear cousin jasmine called me! ahh. okay. so was walking walking around the rest of the day. make me so tired can.
monday! was sleeping most of the times. cus can imagine how tired out i was from vip camp, fd, all sorts of funny planning, service, and all the other rec activities! somemore was resting for camp.
tuesday-thursday. it's either on camp or sleeping at home. hmm. hahaha shant comment much about camp. but they were quite sweet yeah! altho not as good as i expected. but shall look fwd working wth them ahhh (:
pre-school depression. think everyone's getting it now. ahh. but i am looking fwd to school. cus it means a lot of red cross activities starting soon! ahahha. so happy when i think about that. oh my gosh. i love red cross mans! lalla.
fell in love at12:54
Friday, December 23, 2005
hmm. by request of my fellow batch. i shall blog.
you know what. dec hols are ending. which is pretty sad. anyway, ytd's fd session was pretty okay. hmm. and joanne tried pulling me away on the mrt..preventing me from being a light bulb. hmm. hahahx. i think dere is some truth in it anyway. :p
i have been online yet unavalible these days man. just lke to put my status awayy and hopefully ppl wun bug me. (sidenote: they still do.) and yiyan was asking me how long more i can hide about being a vi. well i shall see la. see what i can do. just trying to hang onn.
fell in love at12:19
Wednesday, December 21, 2005
i am going to be driven mad soon.
or at least i feel i am. just trying to control my temper mans. i don wan to start shooting arrows at people just because i am feeling fustrated. blogging is a form of letting it out mans. my parents and my bro out. and least give me some time to quieten down on what i really wan to do. yeah.. so much advice and blah. but guess not many really understand my situation now. must ren mans. toleration is a skill. hehx. let's see the limits of my toleration.. ahhaa.
fell in love at15:55
AHAHA. i woke up at 7 today.
dats early. think i am super used to sleeping so little. hahaa. cus i couldn't get back to sleep again. going for camp again next week. sighh. think i am on a camp marathon mans. everywk also got camp. haha. and i dunno how to tell my parents leh. they still lke dunno i am joining as a vi. or maybe still in blur mode.
hahah looking at the camp photos. they are quite good leh! hahaha. hope we have a nice video! hehx. anw, got nothing to say actually. just bloggin for the sake of bloggin cus ppl has been complaining dat i din update. yupz.
fell in love at08:50
Thursday, December 01, 2005
decided to pull out in the peformance totally.
really can't do it. not that i am not upset. i just can't overcome it. and it just brings me to the point dat no matter how good you are. if you really can't overcome this, you are equal to nothing. was the opening item at first.. guess this thing is already over yah? anyway, it took too much of my time. just dat today rehearsal, the piece just went super super wrong. and ltr when i went to play myself. it turned out perfect. which made me really upset. one person maybe. but a whole load of audience suddenly bcame no way. but also maybe take it as a favour to the tcher planning to the concert man. she wanted to take out somebody anw. it was a bit too long.
anw. the problem is. i still need to overcome this for my exam. which suddenly become freakingly stressing. come to think of it. dere were a few times in history dat i was just plain lucky. my tcher (the one dat taught me for quite long) was right. this is really hindering me from making any major progress. seems lke people around me wans to help me now. cus i am perfectly comfortable wth duets but once i am alone. notes just start going wrong. but i am really tryingg. haha. and someone was asking me if i could perform on the 17th. and i was lke perform again? anw, it clashes wth vip camp. so no hope anw.
ah. help me pull through this.
fell in love at23:58
