//s.p.i.l.l.e.d [-dreams-]

Monday, July 19, 2004

jus had a big fight wif my mum. not toking to each other now. over the stupid toilet. cos i jus came back after sending the prc students home.. and happily wanted to use the bathroom. and den she came in jus tt very moment. and starting screaming why the hell do i want to fight with her for the toilet. i was lke i also dun wan lolx.. to fight with her if i had a choice. den the quarrel started. den i was too lazy to say anithing else. shan't waste my breath.

anw, went to sum friendship lunch todae for the exchange prog. it was so formal lolx. and i was stuck with a stupid tie and i nearly died. with the ri guys. yea. as well. den after tt went singapore river, yea. with the ri guys too huiling went a bit sea sick. den we went asian cultural museum. den xinwei and i spent most of the time talking. yea. and i realised tat even tho both of us are in different uniformed groups. guides and red cross. we found sum similarities in us.. i guess.. in the politics side. haha, at least she provide me with sum insights. and i did really let go. jus b4 this moment. and tat action is to throw all the ibs shit to zee.. haha. thanks xinwei. at least i found sumone who share the same sentiments with me. showing tat i am not alone. and my views aren't weird either.. act.. i am glad tat i found sumone who shares it with me.. and i really tink i should just let go. i made a promise two weeks ago to let go. but i was too soft-hearted and i never did. and the consequences was tat i haf more tears then laughter and i failed my maths test. whatever. after last fri.. i really told myself to let go. just let it go. and let it fly. it might hit a building or it might fly even higher. so whether its fate is good or bad depend on fate ya. cos i seriously dun wan to pay a higher price for this animore. bcos failing tis maths test already made my task of getting an a+.. which is more than 80 for end of year.. more difficult..

i seriously tink tis is a turning pt of my life. mebe b4 tis..i tink my turning point was in sec1.. which i open up alot. from the very quite me. but i believe tis year i learnt alot more and open up even more. be it laughter or tears or wadava. i reali appreciate all these. bcos it makes up a stronger me. sumone taught me to say no. which i rarely did in the last 1 1/2 years. wad xinwei and i said is really true. bcos ppl are so used to u bein responsible and finishing it no matter what. people take it as a norm. when it actually isn't. ms tan taught me to hen xia xing and say no. and i guess tat's qte impt.

walking thr the past 6.5 mths.. i tink tis is a very meaningful year so far for me. altho i've been thr lots of waves. at lest i realised diff types of ppl. sum ppl's true confessions and true side of them. esp tis year, i tink dere's alot of speciall ppl tat guided me along the way. dey make me realise tat life is more den running things. it may be abt people. life.. alot of things. to do things need courage. so do letting things go. and so do tolerating things.

sumone shared this with me. you are lucky if you have a friend tat stands by you and support you no matter what happens. it's your true friend. which you can alwaiz confide in. i guess we reali shld not take people and things for granted. but singaporeans are too lucky.. i guess. but..

i wanna say thankyou

to those tat love and care for me..

fell in love at19:59

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