Friday, July 02, 2004
sigh, it had been a busy week. guess i'm still adapting to the hill pile of workload. actually bet tt the stuff i signed this wk. has eben more than my past 14+ years b4 this week. sigh, erytime, i sit down and tink of it. i wld alwaiz ask myself, if it is worth it. act i dun tink it is. but i will jus manage to convince myself to put my best into it. it's a period of change i guess. but i act feel lke passing out now. deng jiu jiu. dere's still a long way to go. but i guess 1 year passes qte fast. aha. i'm jus leavin my hw here to rot. i reali miss the ma'ams. and wad xiuwen ma'am say is qte true. after a while, u will go down to hq so often until u r sick of it. ah. nonid wait until a while, i'm abit sick of it aledi. bah. jus wanting to close my eyes but i can't.. and i am jus ulterly dissappointed with my juniors. duno wad to do with dem and i find myself so tire tt i dun haf any much energy left erydae, which leaves me no energy to scold dem. i mean eating half breakfast, den no recess, no lunch and eat lunch at 6 is prob bad aledi lah. but dere's jus so much to do. but i guess i can't jus give up on dem liddat. if eryone does give up, noone will ever help dem.
anyway, i miss ulp lke hell now. really. at least i dun feel the stress den. i work beri happily act. but i do feel a certain level of stress certainly.i mean chasing stuff tt is meant to be done mths ago isn't farni or fun at all. but for the sake of the darling gold award, i haf to force myself to chase for it. i shall say tt i haf master the art of bugging ppl after this wk. and i noe the fa kit inside out after tis wk too.. aha. i reali miss ulp. but i guess the skills i learn as a instructor or wadava doesn't reali sorta help. cos i'm not gg to be an instructor?! and planning, more or less it helps lolx, i guess. but i reali miss ulp. it's such a pity tt we can't do most of the ulp activities at trng kemp. due to security reasons. sigh.. but i reali miss it..
fell in love at22:38
