Thursday, August 26, 2004
oh did i mention. my great uncle passed awayy last wk. and my god kor has stomach cancer now in hospital critical situation.
not tat kor's stomach cancer happen only yesterdayy. it happen a few mths ago. went under operation and came out. tot tat kor wld recover. but. yes. it din happen yesterdae. jus tat i am very scared of losing him.. heard tat all the blood transfuse to him all came out or smth liddat. i am realli scared of losing him. remb he realli took care of me well when i was young. altho he was jus 4 yrs older den me. anw. tml i am gg to visit him. at all costs.
actually feel damm xing ku lately. faking a stupid smile so tat ppl wun worry abt me when i feel lke crying. so tat ppl wld tink i'm all rite. so tat ppl wun worry too much abt my medical condition. but in actual fact. i'm very scared actually. scared of alot of things. lke kor.
the pain when i lost my grandma in p5i feel wasn't as great as now actually. perhaps i was still young then. and great uncle. the last time i saw him. he still look very healthy.
i'm afraid. really. and i miss kor.
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