Friday, August 13, 2004
oh. forgot to say sumting jus now. get well soon, angie!! hope u hve a speedy recovery. my poor course mate. got a high fever during nats camp even tho she was a first aider. anw. hope she gets well soon :)
anw. was tinking for the whole day until now. i seriously dunno wads wrong wth me. jus now ling was telling me abt smth. and she said "at this rate, we are gg to lose" and my immediate reaction is as if i care. bah. but i din say tat la. but i seriously do not feel the urge to do smth abt it when she said tat. no more of past yrs gg crazy even tho it is exams. i jus wanna let it be dere and rot.. dun feel lke doing anyting to it.. before nats camp.. i said tat i am not gg to spent another cent on my unit. but now i guess i wld. since i promise tat i wld sell erything. promises shld be kept anw. but after tis. i am not gg to touch it and dun care wad the consequences are.
nats camp was pretty boring act. to me. xcept tat prob knew more ppl arnd yea. i guess i was abit irritated when sum fellow rc cadets knew i was frm ulp and blahing abt why i wasn't chair or v.chair. pretty sick of tat qsn le act. so i din answer dem. tis did not happen during nats camp only lolx. but i sick of tat qsn. anw, i can't be both act. the unit wld jus die under my hands if i ever was, esp if i feel demoralised. rank is jus a piece of useless cloth to me act. so is glory or recognisation. dey will go dusty after a while and nvr do stay.. unless u clean it.. ppl jus tend to forget after a while..
ppl lke to qsn why things happen and why others act this way. jus tink out of the box and u will get the answer. bah.
fell in love at15:22
