Saturday, September 04, 2004
went to see doctor tis morning. got an injection. it doesn't hurt alot of cos. but it reminded me the time when i was in p2. and i got tis series of injections. sigh. but i bet dere is more to cum anw. lolx. spent 4-5 hrs at the doctor. was tire when i came back at arnd 12+. and i forgot tat mummy cooked porridge for me. and daddy bought wantan noodles for me. haish. but anw in the end. i had no appeitiate.
den 1+, went to see kor. was very tire. daddy told me not to go. but i still went. jus less den 1 week onli. kor looks damm tire. haish. it is cancer last stage. if u dun get wad it means den sigh. i very xing teng lolx. u can see needles poking. and blah. i bet it hurts. but once u poke a lot of needles it doesn't anm. i knew it cos i got tat feeling b4. haish. den kor's aunt said. translated: early also go. late also go. mite as well go now. save frm the suffering. den jie was so angry saying. u cursing my bro issit. lolx. sigh. act i can understand both side of the story. both sides love kor too much. but maybe jie couldn't accept it. i knew she can't. but it really pains my heart.. heard frm dem tat kor was calling for me most of the time. i couldn't help crying. i dunno wad else can describe tat. and kor said i grew prettier. hahax. i was trying to smile. mebe he said tat cos he mite nvr had the chance in future. ok. i shan't elaborate wad happen aft tat. i dun wan to. jus tat i cried terribly.
den aft tat. 4+.went to visit daddy. i mean god daddy. if u dun get wadd i mean. he was discharged. resting at home. haish. i found it so hard to wipe my tears awayy. but i shld be happy. daddy escaped death once.. 4 places of his 3 ateries of the heart was blocked lolx. so lke heart cannot pump blood. haish. but he was lucky. got into hospital in time. anw. i din tok much. was thinking abt kor. mixed feelings. i shld be happy act. daddy recovered. budden i couldn't smile at all. kor's condition got worse. i only feel even more depressed and depressed. den i got home and fainted. perhapes it was fatigue. morning was already qte taxing for me. and cried so much. but dun worry k. i'm okay now.
oh yea. and i had a chat wth sum of the unit leaders ytd. mm. not frm my grp tho. and one of dem said, "u mean u all only start to give up now??!!" how ironic. dun worry ppl. u all can do it de. all the past leaders got thr. so would u guys.
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