Sunday, October 03, 2004
i wonder how many more surprises i can take. sighh. last fri. my first uncle got admitted into hospital bcos hes is in crucial condition. haix. cos it was something wrong after the op he had. i guess. he had cancer sumwhere in his intenstine. ha. dat was one surprise. and then i had another nice surprise. app. my 3rd uncle is going to hve a op on the 5th oct.. on the brain. hmm. tis is de 4th op on the brain. sigh. i thot i wld fall after kor's death. so apparently i din. i tnk
he gave me courage aft thurs' talk wth him. maybe. or maybe my will is stronger than i thought.
sigh. mon tml. and guess wad i am dead. first. is i duno how to face
him actly. if u use your brains. u wld know who
he is. i guess hes really guess or understand or whatever some of de stuff in the bottom of my heart. which noone ever had. dats lke de second gg to third level. most pple only know me on the first. some closer one on the second level. even i consider my parents somewhere in btwn first and second only. sighh. which makes me duno how to face
him. second point is i'm seeing dr tang tml at 2.30. app. i only knew when she sms me. wow. and guess what. i hve orals at 2 or 2.15. at first tinking of gg see her late but app she cld guess wads on my mind. sighh. dr tang said even miss lessons also must be dere. so i guess. it's impt. haix. but lucky my primary doc. dr tony is in china. YAY!! hes cumin back only on de 20th. so i cld save a bit of his nagging for a while :D.. third point is i hve physics pt presentation tml. ok dats not so bad.
sometimes i hope someone just kill me before i lose self control. serious. i tnk i am losing self control soon. i hve no idea on wad i am doing. wad i am saying. wad i am tnking. its total rubbish. and i suddenly found myself refrain a whole load of nonsense. i din sud tink of it. its jus dat i found myself telling myself tis one canot. dat one canot.
oh yea. was reading nava's blog. and found her description of
him. hies. its quite funny. and i guess. most parts of it is true. should really read it. it's hilarious. http://puyal.diaryland.com/040702_26.html
and i agree wth tis sentence the most
Its rather amusing how you can detect his kind heart underneath that aloof, I-do-not-care-abt-these-nonsense attitude and you find out that this man, who appears devoid of any humanly feelings, can actually love. and els was asking if all de gals taught by dem are dat crazy. but hey. i dun tink so. i tink its a true description of dem. haha. if u ever hve dem as teachers. altho i hve no comments abt the sex part. but guess wad. aft reading it. it cheered me up.
things dat i shld refrain from:
1) painkillers
2) medicated oil
3) alot of water
4) sugars (except fructose)
5) study
6) computer
7) other energy sapping stuff
8) fried food
9) cold food
10) physical activities
haish. dats all i can tnk of at de moment. i ser dunno how long i can hang on. i feel dat i am on a motor boat hitting de rocks soon. oh. and should i go to school tml? hies.
fell in love at22:04
