Monday, February 28, 2005
hee. back again. really lost at what to do now. feeling more tired mentally than physically. it is just mentally stressing. really really dunno what to do. sometimes i have no idea why they have to treat her as a total stranger, and trying to be friendly at the same time. it is like being hypocrites. feeling sandwiched in betweeen. cus if i were to do this, i wld betray them. but if i do otherwise, i wld betray my true feelings. just feeling super lost lost lost. lost at words for what to say to make someone feel better. it's just like u know it wld never come true. but saying things that wld hopefully cheer him or her up. but hai. at least shafali is happy.sometimes i just wish to get off from school forever. but it is just a way of running away. i am just super duper tired. wish to have time for yuu. hope you know who yuu are. had less time to visit him too. but he will definately be happy to know me spread his love for him. but that. is also a demanding task. wth so many challenges on the way.haish.life is beautiful in a way.
life is cruel too in a way.
can we overcome fate?
maybe not.
we just lost in the hands of God.ah. forgot to say. i am numb by accademic. so i decided to left my rs there to die. life is about youu~
fell in love at10:58