Thursday, February 24, 2005
haha. pretty stressed lately. dun really know wad to say. sometimes i really like to throw my temper and well. yah. maybe thats the old me. was abit not happy wth the sec1s for delaying and delaying. for days. but wells. fine. they are sec1s. but guess this makes things very difficult for shing and me. hai. haven even order or fax the uniform. crap la. and wth all de sports heats swim carn, founders day cumin up. life basically meant hell.
got history test tmrw. but i seriously see the chance of me passing equals to being very slim. really feeling quite tired lately. sleeping at 1,2 plus. hai. basically majority of de sec4s are driven crazy la. we can even sleep during PE.
imagine. haha. so red cross takes up loads of my time. but well. so what. think some tchers are pissed wth me for not doing work. lol. so wad. i clearly know i cant cope. ya. but i rather give up my studies. than to give up special olympics. or awwa. or ccf. some pple around me has been asking me to give up one of the projects. but i seriously dunno which one to give up out of the 9, 10 +. lol. and anw, i wun bear to give it up, i know my passion and love for this and i wun give it up, even if i kana screamed by a thousand pple.
which reminds me. dun see the pt of making pple do cip for the sake of hrs. cip shld be something you enjoy. not going there to suffer. seriously feel sad for people who think cip is a chore. maybe dats ant pov. but well. dun think old pple are troublesome and bah. they are nice, okay. better than some idiotic pple.
keep trying to hang on. only less than 10 mths less!! sounds so short but long. hai. heard from some pple since some time that i am real capable and bah. but dats no use anymore. i begin to doubt myself. wads the use. i let my life to charge of me instead of taking charge of my life. bah. am feeling real stressed. but well.
just hang on.anyway, to a friend very special to me. i know the feeling of falling in cus i fell in before. it's hard to climb out of this but i am sure you can do it. you did it before and i believe in you that you can definately climb out of this again.
fell in love at19:53
