Tuesday, March 29, 2005
i am tired. of meeting so many deadlines which seems very hard to meet.
i am tired. of fitting things into a very tight schedule.
i am tired. of going through the stress when i am super behind schedule.
i am tired. of all the tension at home. (one speaks bad of another)
i am tired. of copping to supporting my good friends through these hard times.
and with all these add together. really feel worn out. dun feel like eating during meal times. feel so annoyed with minor tasks. dats why my hp is off and i wun pick up calls at home. really dun feel like it. but no matter how hard it is. still have to continue. finally knew the results of siew's ct scan. she has a grwoing bone on her left shoulder also. even bigger than the right one. only operation can solve. and heard that the operation is risky mans. a big op. and some of the bones had touches the nerve so she feels pain and sometime numbness. got chance to become handicap.
really feel worn out. but have to continue supporting her. i know shes scared. and che too. praying for the both of them. i wish for inner peace and quiet. life is really going too fast. i am just dragged by life. when was the last time i got to walk leisurely for a day. when was the last time i need not worry about anything. when was the last time i need not suffer under those muscle pains and tensions.i guess i dun mind taking things slowly. but somehow the people around you keep making you do things that you dun wan. sometime think of it. why plan. you plan plan plan. but in the end. all your plans wld be disrupted bcus of smth dat happen. so. just take things one thing and a time. events in future. think later. we dun hve so much brain cells to kill.
fell in love at22:34
