Friday, March 25, 2005
saw a forum debating if singapore is a good place to live in. well. i guess. it is physically. no disasters. life is more or less stable. but emotionally? dun think so. i guess it is not the way. but the competitive spirit here. seeing the 65percent of pple have personal computers. one wld work for one also. and in the process of working for it. stress level hit a new record. cus keep forcing yourself to get one asap cus others are progressing also. well. i guess it's just human's competitive spirit.
and when authority is competing, and when you dun wan to. you wld feel opressive. cus authority is forcing you to. wonder if this is the case in rgs. all the teachers pratically making us to go into rjc. why? competition. the girls we produce must be the best. whatever. really feeling very tired. my heart is really hurt. was looking at some charts who. realise that now. singapore dependancy ratio is like from now 8.3percent to 21.8 percent. hai.
siew came back from her medical appt. but she din really wan to say what is the result like. so din force her. pray it is not bad news. sometimes deciving yourself is not a bad idea.
fell in love at13:58