Thursday, June 09, 2005
taking some time to blog around. hai. life's been so busy. slept only 2hrs for the past 2 nitez. i guess i am becoming like a workaholic. work work work until i fall sick. i mean this is worse than school time mans. i am tired.
but well. i guess i dun mind. seeing the smilez and happiness. it is worth it. hai. and i forseen ant night of sleepless nite again. hai. am i really that zai? hai, somehow pple around me alwaiz says that. hmm. maybe. but there is a consequences for being zai anyone.
okay. lets fill up on the last two weeks. went for ulp campfire. guess the feeling came back. the love-redcross feeling! haha. their batch was more slack. cus they go hard on welfare this year. i mean. ya la. to strike a balance between training and welfare. it's utopia. but well. we shall try. so seemingly. they seems to be more slack. got to meet up with yuching sir and vanessa maam. and bravo!! haha. and we having our group outing. it's not that i am unsymphathetic or anything okay. my batch is not tou fu lorh. if we are, then what are they? the sec3s still can la. but onwards.. super protected lorh. no wonder all cannot take blows. complain complain complain. have you ever see other conditions or not? but well. not that they are wrong sometimes. the secthrees do go overboard at times. we do go overboard at times. sometimes wonder why i didn't stop this. guess i really learnt a lot. human psycology hmm. and of cus. at there. got the old popular qsn again: Are you going to join VIP (volunteer instructor programme)? haha. good one. ken khoon and reinaldo joining. guess they really lack instructors. really. haha. they said look fwd to seeing me there. well. i really dont know. really got loads of comittment. cus prolly will be in the YVIP (youth volunteer involment programme) camp also and loads of programme. and promised to help in this and that. joining VIP means that all my future hols are almost gone. haha. but well. i might join. but most prolly wun go back to rgs. anw, doubt that they would want me. haha. other units need VIs more. hmm. but a bit will help other people go against rgs. hai. lol.
next. went back to awwa aft one long month. meet eric and there was this rjc guy who came to do cip. sigh, they hadn't got new staff. pay too low. hai. realise i realy miss them loads! and bcame a part time physio. doing assessment.hahahah.but seriously. if one really have the heart of being a volunteer. it would be as usual as asking you why you ate two days ago. perfectly normal. and unsignificant. and went down to glory centre for cle. it was rather okay.
piano! i got stage fright la. cannot do performance. serious. ah. really cannot do duet with zhaoting. serious. not to mention solo. really need to get over it. i was so scared when there was only a few pple that i broke out in cold sweat. i really cant perform in front of so many.. anyway it was fun. guess i was really far tooo busy. i was abit mad that i started writing the stem of the note the other way instead of the correct way. so so mixed up.
handing over. hai. i wasnt a good qm. hai. kept mixing up stuff. wasnt a good wh either. sometimes never consider juniors' welfare. but guess it is a learning process.
haha. and you know what?
i really love you!
fell in love at15:26
