Tuesday, September 20, 2005
i thought i wouldn't be affected. but i did in the end.
shant elaborate what happen. but just wondered if i really put in my true feelings.
but today. the romantic piece was superb according to the others. for once. i seems to ignore the people around me and really played well acc to them. wth the romance feeling and a bit of gan1 shang3. hehh really?
for those that still hadn't figure out. pretty upset now. this is really the first time that i cried because of ant matter, ant person for these 2 years. maybe i will elaborate wad happen ant day. i thot being indifferent to things can minimise the hurt i suffer and also. to the others. but much as the efforts not getting involved. feelings just get involved. unconsciously.
somehow. alot of people are poking me for definite answers. somehow they are not satisfied wth dunno and maybe. somehow i think a lot of people over estimate me. somehow being nice is also weakness. somehow i dun think anyone clearly understands my situation.
jayanthi and kums are saying today that i am easily convinced. maybe. think i just can't take it when people keep pleading. if you ask me if i know how to reject others. i think my answer would be no. ern once said i can dun sleep dun eat just to do things cus i dunno how to reject others. hehh. maybe.
i never thot i will be faced wth this. is it then a blessing or spelling ant disaster. today is a day wth many small happenings to others but many insights to me.
fell in love at21:18
