Monday, April 03, 2006
life has been pretty you can say monotonous these days. and yeah. i heard people complaining abt my MIA-ing. yes yes i know. guess all e volunteers know i MIA for a few mths now :p but i gotta admit i cant cope now. not with all these things. yep. my uncles in hospital. so is my great aunt. and my grandfather is sick as well. the stress is getting onto me. somehow e kids are fighting for my attention as well these days. went back rg last weds. saw mr chu. he had a fever. supposed he pass it to me then. cus i had a vicious fever the very next day. but dats not e pt. just that the walk down rgs corridor just brought back loads of memories. good ones bad ones. happy ones sad ones. i might say i not miss it but yet i do. in my heart. and to think i alwaiz thot i will miss e people e most. but yet. apparently i miss e building the most. i din went to find my teachers. nor spent time wth my juniors. i just went all around the building. enjoying the afternoon breeze and rain.
and so maybe that fondness continue. bcus of my fever. din feel too good to go for awards ceremony. but still went in e end cus cant find replacement also. met ms mariette ong there. somehow her words touched my heart. yes i broke down in tears. but i hurried wipe away my tears of cus. after all so many guests were there. she was sitting in the vip table. but i din feel too good at all after that. bcus of the fever or her words i dontknow. but the little episode simply unleash too many memories. i recalled how he celebrated my 14th birthday. it was special indeed. for noone celebrated for me since my 10th birthday. i remb my grandma passed away on my 11th birthday. which from then onwards. noone celebrated my birthday. felt kinda left out then. seems that my bro will have great parties every year. and yet when it comes to my birthday it is just utterly slience. so that 14th birthday is special. i would always remb what he said. said that whevever i am sad. i must remb that he helped me to jab in loads of anaesthetic beforehand. so i would never never ever feel pain.
yes i do remember. perhaps his faith has always pushed me to fight a lot of things in rg then. and now even fight for e elderly. oneyear fivemths twodays and twentyonehrs since his death. the very fact that the sentence time heals all wounds holds is all because people tend to forget the forgotten after a while. his anaesthetic is running low. the pain is killing me. i thot i had bury it but yet i just nearly wanted to crumble in front of the kids. i am scared i will. soon. be it to the kids or anyone else.
fell in love at16:43
