Sunday, June 17, 2007
HAHAH. i am back. just a post of laments i suppose.
canoe - must trained hard mans. if not for today being father's day, i will probably just finish training. anyway father's day. love you daddy! but point is nationals is coming! train harder. be more focused!
school- obviously at the same time must mug hard. block tests coming. feeling sooo tired and worn out. and the endless things to do for PW. I HATE PROJECT WORK.
redcross- feeling very bad towards my cadets. hadnt been able to go down for their trainings. cant stay fully for their camps. cus of my endless things to do. busy with CAC and CRD. CRD is like done already just need one more recee but for CAC i can just list out a whole full list of things to do. anyway. CAC is probably gonna be my last event for at 9 mths or so. besides serving as admin for lsfc. i gotta force myself to tone down for redcross stuff or i am never going to have time for other things. guess it's time for the juniors to take over too.
piano - beginning to force myself to make time to practise. got a bit less niao-ings. but nevertheless still not enough. yeah i know. i am sorry. i barely have time. maybe thats an excuse.
church!- i really really want to serve God more. not that i dont want to take it up yup sorry. just that i am really torn apart. it's like a tug of war inside and it feels awful. but very soon i will start to choose more wisely. just need some time i supposed.
others - guess they are just time for breathers. wanted to go settlers with huda denise and gang on friday but unfortunately cant. just dropped by for redcross bowl for like 1 hour or so and saw long lost people like qihui hahaha.
beginning to feel the torment and a bit disillusioned. sometimes i wish i didnt have such a good memory. sometimes i wish that i can forget some things. sometimes i wish that i didnt choose the things i choose. not that i regret. but just wondering would the other be better choices? and. a phrase that keeps popping up of my mind these few days. 时间真的有疗伤之用吗
owells. till then. the next post.
fell in love at18:57
