Friday, October 31, 2008
i decided to revive my blog cus i suddenly felt that i need somewhere to pen my thoughts again. not sure if anyone will read. but just to pen it down.
i am suddenly feeling tired and sians about life lately. But by God's grace, somehow could find the strength to drag myself to go study through the little things that interest me and perhaps some inner strength given to me. suddenly scared and fearful of the future. recently not sure why but i began to think back and realise how fast things change. somehow people there two years ago were not there anymore. somehow in primary school, the familarity was always there. because your classmates will still somehow end up in the same class as you as you progress. similarly in seconday school, though change classes during lower sec and upper sec, there is still some degree of familarity considering the close-ness we girls are.
but somehow when it comes to jc. things somehow just fly before you know it. that applies to the so called outside world as well. staff that once belong there may not be there after two years. just merely one year later they may be working for another organisation. just like comparing rcy now and a year ago, it is somehow the juniors being pro-active and doing the work. oh wells. perhaps as we move up, we become more laid back as we begin giving up the hope that we can change things. the passion, the belief seems hard to substain in the long run.
i having second thoughts. with regards to some things. much as he is right beside me at times, yet my mind wanders beyond. i really wonder if i should just continue this. it is somehow good to be alone at times. i miss the times that i just think. the very trait that a thinker has to be called a thinker.
anyway lets talk about more definite things. after a levels. whee. UIP! yay, looking forward to camp! hahahah. i miss camps! (:
fell in love at23:05
